fear of new things
August 22nd, 2005
Wanted: A seriously fast walker to go on evening walks on my bad days.
Fell asleep on the train. Came home angry and tired. Only thing that could help was going out and walk faster and faster. (I am sorry baby, I had to go without you. You know what I am like.)
Beach and ducks and blond girls jogging. I wanted to call him and say let’s smoke a pack of cigarettes in chain. Half to you, half to me, don’t ask any questions. And when I’ve calmed down say: Hey let’s go see what that park is like. have you ever been there? And weird funny stories. Maybe I’ll even make you laugh.
Other people can do that thing; Put their things in suitcases and go see the world..