Plan B
August 6th, 2005Yesterday was about falling into my personal black hole. The Great Plan that has had me floating high above ground lately was crumbled after anxious leafing through the course menu. No matter how much work I do, I can’t get all the courses for my bachelor’s degree completed in a year, since some of the courses are only offered every other year, which is not this year… and so.
Now I feel like I had my escape route mapped, but lost it, and it was the only way out. Which is ridiculous when you think about it, since I have little clue of what I want to do and where to study. In part I felt that if I left in a year it was more excusable to settle for something silly. If it takes more time I have to aim higher. Much higher. Which is really not in the spirit of escaping.
I am the kind of person who doesn’t know how to let life take it’s course. I always need a plan.