this now
July 19th, 2005The smallness of our life. The capacity to breathe.
Noticing, seeing: The elderly couple walking their adult disabled child, arms linked, laughing. The blond man with too little kids you deemed as finnish until they start to talk in this singing italian. The five men in suits in the park, sitting in a row on the fountain edge eating their lunch, oddly belonging and not. The drawing of a girl saying “it’s okay� and a white shimmering penguin sticker on an electricity cabinet on the street corner. (oh, of course you don’t have a camera.) Moulin rouge wallpaper costing six euros less. Sale fabric from ikea. The best movie you’ve seen in a year. (the mother sitting on the stairs smoking. that is our world.)
She says “I am happy. Some days so that I feel like bursting. But it took this long.�
The woman saying: you sound so alone. with something like this. And you starting crying.